Sleep Paralysis....

Its a terrifying thing. I'm getting the heebie jeebies just talking about it. Basically when your body goes into REM sleep you become paralysed so that you don't act out your dreams. But if you get sleep paralysis you can wake up during this, but only mentally. So your brain wakes up, but your body is still asleep and in a state of paralysis.

With me so far? So your brain panics and tries to make sense of why you can not move and starts to hallucinate. Most people see things holding them down, like ghosts or demons. Some people see hags or witches that cast spells to make it so they can't move. Some people see aliens. (I'm not saying all alien abductions are a result of this, I'm merely stating facts, so don't get all uppity) Everyone understand?

Now what causes it? Well what causes nightmares? Our brains are amazing instruments that we only have a glimpse of understanding on. There are the usual things. Stress, sleeping in a weird place (Shaun that's probably why you get it sleep on the couch), sleeping in a new sleep pattern, not getting enough sleep.... They even say sleeping on your back can cause it. The usual suspects and others for problems with sleep. But they don't know for sure.

Personally I see the shadows. When this happens I usually get to scared to sleep for like weeks. So here we are. I had sleep paralysis on Friday night and I have hardly been able to sleep at all. I start dozing and think "What if it happens again?" Scare myself and am wide awake again.

I remember the first time it happened I think I was 12. I had a dream that I tripped and I couldn't get up and something was after me. I opened my eyes and I was in my room, but I still couldn't move for a few seconds, but I snapped out of it pretty quickly and just chalked it up to not being fully awake. Which maybe I wasn't. I really can't say for sure.

I didn't happen again until I was 19, but it happens more frequently the older I get it seems. This time (Friday) when it happened I recognized what was happening, having done some research on it since it happened last, and thought "Ok, I'm fine. Its just sleep paralysis. I just need to wait for a minute." Calm. I was alright. Then out of the corner of my eye I saw this shadow and I just knew that it knew I was having sleep paralysis, and it was coming to get me.

I just watched this shadow creep at me knowing it was going to get me if I couldn't snap out of sleep paralysis. Keep in mind, I was hallucinating. I know none of it happened, but it was terrifying.

I found this video on youtube, where someone tries to recreate what you see during sleep paralysis. It is here Keep in mind, it is a little spooky.

So writing about this has got me all spooked out. So I'm gonna go be loud and happy somewhere. Toodles.

Snow sprites...

I took some pics with my dollies new Christmas timey outfits.

I think I spent the most time on Fi's outfit. I really like these pics. It got a little to cold before I finished taking pics. Plus I was a little bored but myself. Maybe tomorrow, or more likely Monday, I'll take some music out with me to give me inspiration.

The good thing about taking pics of my dollies in the snow is that since they are not warm their clothes don't get wet. Nice since I don't know if that would ruin the fabric of Fiona's dress, or what it would do to the vinyl on Anarchy's.

So yeah. Not much is going on with me. I've decided to be more social and stuff. So yeah. Maybe I'll make a friend or something (not likely).

Anyway, I'm tired and I feel a little ill. I'm gonna go lay down. Toodles.

Its Christmas time, again.

We decorated the Christmas tree over the past weekend. I took pictures!!! Woo!!

Lola

Little Bud (you can't really see him) and the dollies

Mikey decorating :) I love him

Oliver hanging ornaments

Anarchy looks so pretty in this pic

Fiona is the angel

Anarchy. My girls were being alot more photogenic than Oliver

Fiona

And today I got An's face up touched up by my wicked awesome Aunt Sherri (you remember Neisha from my other blogs? Its her mom :) )

And I can't decide on brunette...

or blonde.....

I'm going to be taking pics of them all in there fancy new Christmas outfits later. I put alot of work into them. They look really good I think.

Well that's all I have for now. Toodles.

Ridiculously short

I'm just saying to go see my newest video. Enjoy. It is here: The Fallen Rose

Happy Holiday Fun!!

I took lots of pictures!!! Check 'em out!!

We went outside, and the first thing Fiona did was fall. Oliver tried to help her up though

Anarchy just stood and watched.

Fiona decided to make a snow angel instead of getting up

But Oliver helped her up so she didn't mess up her angel

Later Anarchy decided to take advantage of Oliver's turned back and hit him with snow.

But she ended up falling over on him and taking them both down.

But she still took the oppertunity to run snow on his face

Inside getting out of our wet things

Oliver's hair was dripping. Poor guy

All our shoes lined up to dry by the door

After that we went downstairs to wrap the presents we've had lying around

An unrolled the wrapping paper

"NO! Don't take pics over here, you never know who might see their presents!"

Putting on some tape

The needed team work to hold this piece down

Oliver wrote the names

Onto the next present

I helped this time

Oliver has good handwriting :P

The littlest one was the easiest to wrap

And didn't need help with this one

"Even the name is the easiest."

Now time to relax

It was a tiring day :)

Yep. That's what I did today. It was alot of fun. Hope you enjoyed looking as much as I enjoyed doing it. Toodles

I always forget my tuesdays...

Whenever things are planned on Tuesdays I always forget. Its usually because I've forgotten it is Tuesday. I don't know why. I always do though. Its lame.

Anyway, so today when I took the dogs out I took Anarchy out with me. She has a new wig and this weekend she will also be getting newerish face up. I wont be changing her eyes (I LOVE her eyes) just her lips. But yeah. I really love her new wig, it really fits her. And yes, I took pictures!! Here they are:

Yep. Those are my pics of Anarchy. I plan to take the rest out there and do a photoshoot. It should be fun. Woo! Everyone has been getting new outfits and such lately, so I've been taking quite a few pics.

Yep, well, that's all I got. I know its short, but I'll feed you some more bloggey goodness later. Toodles.

December begins.

So I'm just typing all journal-esque today. I didn't do anything today. Really. I got up early to shower (I like to get up early to shower because no one is either there or awake) I don't really know how I do it either. Get up early that is. I never set an alarm. I just think the night before "I gotta shower in the morning" and I wake up around like 9ish. I usually go to bed again afterward, but sometimes there is a movie I feel like watching that I know Mikey wont like so I'll watch it while he is still asleep.

Today I went back to bed. I was pretty sick yesterday, and slightly sick today. I think its just a little bit of a cold bug. One of those many things that would never affect anyone but my broken down immune system. I don't mind though. Well, not usually. This time of year I get sick rather often (not fun) but I'm pretty used to it. At least being sick so much has really put me in tune with how things are happening on my insides. That's always convenient.

I got up when Mikey got back from his shower, which I pretty much do everyday. Then I think I just laid in bed for a little while til Mikey went up to make food for the work day. I took the dogs out and fed them and the cat. Then sat and talked to Mikey while he made his lunch/dinner for work, then gave him a kiss bye and went down to my room, or as I like to refer to it amongst the voices, The Hole. Not in a bad way, but I think I have rodent like tendencies at times. i.e. I emerge from my hole to eat, emerge from my hole to used the bathroom, emerge from my hole, get spooked by my shadow and flee back into my hole. Leaving the world with 6 more weeks of winter.

And that really covers my day. I've been in my hole. I get the occasional visitor (I think Mikey's parents worry about how anti-social I am) But I like quiet and calm. Rodent like I know. Maybe I was a mole in a past life or something. Who knows. I certainly don't.

So the first thing I did in my hole (yes I'm going into detail) was turn on Howl's Moving Castle and watch about half before I couldn't keep my eyes open anymore. So I took a snooze which was rudely interrupted by Little Bud thinking the boogie man was breaking in and started barking. Little jerk is lucky I love him so (even though I did momentarily kick him off the couch). So I finished watching Howl and then turned on The Velvet Goldmine. And part way through a certain music video (its about rock stars) that shows an alien at the service of both female and male blow up dolls (for my more sensitive readers I wont go into further detail) Mikey's mom walked in. Luckily our tv is situated so that I could stand (kinda awkwardly) so that she would not see it. Knowing this movie pretty well I knew when that part was over and sat down.

After she left I thought through the movie and remembered it is rated R and for good reason. So to avoid any further awkward standing moments I changed movies and put in Moulin Rouge. Well after I put on my favorite movie I sat down and picked up the book I had gotten over the past weekend. Suddenly I'm 3/4 the way through this book and the credits for Moulin Rouge are rolling. How did that even happen?! Feeling guilty that I had paid such little attention to the movie that has brought me so much happiness I took it out of the player and turned on Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children. I LOVE this movie. Though I'm on the second time watching it, (and completely done with my book) I'm not to tired of it. Its one of those I don't HAVE to pay attention to. Let me explain.

I have some movies that I haven't watched yet to pick up on every silly simple thing. For instance in Moulin Rouge I can recite the whole movie including sound effects in perfect time. Its not necessarily because I watch them to much (though I'm sure that is a factor) My brain just picks everything up. I see a fire, and my brain notes how the smoke flows, how high the flames get and when, what people are saying and who says what. Its one of my favorite thing about my brain. Seeing everything. Hearing everything. Sometimes I don't even realize I'm listening to someone or something until they ask and I can recite everything they just said. I am a peculiar person I suppose.

I'm sure everyone that has seen Advent Children (or anything containing FFVII) is thinking "Ooohhh! Cloud! I lurve him so!" Yeah, Cloud is awesome and a total BA, but I LOVE.... wait for it... Yazoo! I do. He is so odd and almost ethereal. He has a sort of feminine way about him, that I would probably find tedious in real life. But for a few hours on tv I love his weird ways.

Yazoo. He is wicked awesome.

Yep. So with better health on the horizon I will be heading to my mom's tomorrow, and the Festival of Trees (should 'the' be capitalized?) with Mikey's mom and sisters Friday. I think Oliver may be sneakily tagging along in my purse *insert mischievous grin here) And I think that's all for now. Well FFVII just ended (again) so I am heading over to watch another movie... or restart this one. Maybe I'll watch a little Chaplin.... Hm... Its really hard to say, but either way this blog is ending. So toodles.