Oh the conversations I have

It started last night. With me and Mikey as we were going to bed we were chatting. Here is a vague transcript of what I can remember. Mikey will be in red I will be in purple

I'm going to die of exhaustion

You can't die of exhaustion.

You know what, now I'm going to die of exhaustion just to spite you.

They wont know you died of exhaustion.

Yeah, I've seen tv, I know how it works. The autopsy people will see that I died of exhaustion. And spite. Some how they will find out it was out of spite.

"Joe did you just lick the body?" "Yep. Tastes like spite."

To which I almost died laughing. I love my Mikey, he is so funny and insane.

Then I had a conversation with Mikey's little sister at dinner. It went something like this: (I'm still purple, Mikey's sister Madison will be in green)

Is your dad half Mexican?

What? No. He's Indian.

Oh! That's why you were your hair in braids.

Uh... No I actually just like braids

Sacajawea wore braids

(enter Mikey's mom who will be yellow)

Mom are half anything

What do you mean?

Like half Mexican, or half Indian?

No...?

Oh. Dad's got to be at least half Asian. Or else he couldn't get so tan.

It was the most innocently racist conversation I've ever had. Kids are so awesome. Or maybe Mikey's family is just insane. Either way, it has made my last couple days pretty funny :)

RIP Pit

Hello folks. Here is a blog.

Firstly, here is a video I made. Enjoy.

Secondly, I'm very sad over the death of my beta fish. His name was Pit, after the video game character from Kid Icarus. I'm sad. He was a good fish. We had him for a little over 2 years. RIP my little Pitley.

Yeah. So we are going fish shopping tomorrow. It should be interesting. I want fish that can have friends. I always felt so sad that Pitley, being a beta fish, could not have anyone else in his bowl. He must have been sad. I'm glad he did not die alone. Poor little guy.

Yeah, well that's all I have for today. I'll let you all know about the fishes that we get tomorrow. Toodles.

Welcome, 2010

I really had nothing against 2009 (aside from all the dead celebrities. Billy Mayes, you will be missed) but 2010 does seem to be off to a good start for all my loved ones.

I had a really amazing Christmas, and a really fun New Year. But what I want to talk to you about today is movies. I have seen a couple really amazing movies lately, and I feel the need to share my opinion and views.

Firstly, a little while back I saw The Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus. You know, Heath Ledger's last film? Well let me just say that I loved it. It was so beautiful, it told such an interesting and sad story, and... well... I dunno. It had that "something". You know, that thing that makes a movie wonderful, but you really can't describe why. It had that.

Its about a man named Parnassus (you may recognize the name from the title) and after countless bets with the devil he owes his daughter's soul. But Mr Devil gives him one last bet, if he can get to five souls before the devil does then he can keep his daughter's soul.

Enter Heath Ledger. A man they rescue who has no idea who he is. But with his good looks and charm he easily lures people in and helps them with the wager. But there is alot more going on with him then anyone realizes.

I really enjoyed it. The visuals were astounding, and the story was enchanting. Though, if you are not a fan of really weird, then you may not enjoy it. It was really weird. But that suits me just fine :)

Nextly, The Invention of Lying. I really did not expect anything from this. I thought it would be silly and fun, but that's about it. But to my pleasant surprise it was really good, and thoughtful. In a world were no one has ever even heard of the concept of dishonesty a man suddenly realises he has the ability to lie. So he uses this to his advantage and becomes famous and rich.

But when his mom gets sick and he tells her all this stuff about what happens after you die, and someone over hears it turns into this big thing.

It was really good and surprisingly heartfelt. I was a fan, even though I didn't think I would be.

And Last but not least: Dorian Gray. Who here knows the story of Dorian Gray? Anyone? I will tell you anyway.

The Picture of Dorian Gray is a story by Oscar Wilde. It is about a young man who trades his soul to remain young and attractive forever. His soul is put into a painting of him. Whatever he does no longer affects him, just the painting.

At first he feels free and goes about doing just whatever he pleases. He has sex, does drugs, whatever because he knows he can and not be affected by it. He even kills.

Well after long years of deprived living, he looks at this painting and realizes, "Hey, wait a minute, this is my soul! I am one messed up guy!" So he tries to be good and do good to reverse the damage. But he can't. All the damage is still there.

Eventually this drives him insane and he stabs a sword into the painting, killing himself.

Personally I've loved this story ever since my creative writing teacher read it to the class. It is not for everyone, but I love stories like this. Which is why I was so annoyed with The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen. The ruined his story. Jerks.

Anyway, so they made a movie out of the real story. And it is SSOOO AMAZING!!! I am so in love. Its creepy, disturbing, weird, but meaningful, and deep at the same time. Wonderful.

I could really talk about this forever, but now seems like as good a place as any to stop. So I hope you are having a wonderful 2010, and that is all I've got to say for my first blog of the year. Toodles.

Sleep Paralysis....

Its a terrifying thing. I'm getting the heebie jeebies just talking about it. Basically when your body goes into REM sleep you become paralysed so that you don't act out your dreams. But if you get sleep paralysis you can wake up during this, but only mentally. So your brain wakes up, but your body is still asleep and in a state of paralysis.

With me so far? So your brain panics and tries to make sense of why you can not move and starts to hallucinate. Most people see things holding them down, like ghosts or demons. Some people see hags or witches that cast spells to make it so they can't move. Some people see aliens. (I'm not saying all alien abductions are a result of this, I'm merely stating facts, so don't get all uppity) Everyone understand?

Now what causes it? Well what causes nightmares? Our brains are amazing instruments that we only have a glimpse of understanding on. There are the usual things. Stress, sleeping in a weird place (Shaun that's probably why you get it sleep on the couch), sleeping in a new sleep pattern, not getting enough sleep.... They even say sleeping on your back can cause it. The usual suspects and others for problems with sleep. But they don't know for sure.

Personally I see the shadows. When this happens I usually get to scared to sleep for like weeks. So here we are. I had sleep paralysis on Friday night and I have hardly been able to sleep at all. I start dozing and think "What if it happens again?" Scare myself and am wide awake again.

I remember the first time it happened I think I was 12. I had a dream that I tripped and I couldn't get up and something was after me. I opened my eyes and I was in my room, but I still couldn't move for a few seconds, but I snapped out of it pretty quickly and just chalked it up to not being fully awake. Which maybe I wasn't. I really can't say for sure.

I didn't happen again until I was 19, but it happens more frequently the older I get it seems. This time (Friday) when it happened I recognized what was happening, having done some research on it since it happened last, and thought "Ok, I'm fine. Its just sleep paralysis. I just need to wait for a minute." Calm. I was alright. Then out of the corner of my eye I saw this shadow and I just knew that it knew I was having sleep paralysis, and it was coming to get me.

I just watched this shadow creep at me knowing it was going to get me if I couldn't snap out of sleep paralysis. Keep in mind, I was hallucinating. I know none of it happened, but it was terrifying.

I found this video on youtube, where someone tries to recreate what you see during sleep paralysis. It is here Keep in mind, it is a little spooky.

So writing about this has got me all spooked out. So I'm gonna go be loud and happy somewhere. Toodles.

Snow sprites...

I took some pics with my dollies new Christmas timey outfits.

I think I spent the most time on Fi's outfit. I really like these pics. It got a little to cold before I finished taking pics. Plus I was a little bored but myself. Maybe tomorrow, or more likely Monday, I'll take some music out with me to give me inspiration.

The good thing about taking pics of my dollies in the snow is that since they are not warm their clothes don't get wet. Nice since I don't know if that would ruin the fabric of Fiona's dress, or what it would do to the vinyl on Anarchy's.

So yeah. Not much is going on with me. I've decided to be more social and stuff. So yeah. Maybe I'll make a friend or something (not likely).

Anyway, I'm tired and I feel a little ill. I'm gonna go lay down. Toodles.

Its Christmas time, again.

We decorated the Christmas tree over the past weekend. I took pictures!!! Woo!!

Lola

Little Bud (you can't really see him) and the dollies

Mikey decorating :) I love him

Oliver hanging ornaments

Anarchy looks so pretty in this pic

Fiona is the angel

Anarchy. My girls were being alot more photogenic than Oliver

Fiona

And today I got An's face up touched up by my wicked awesome Aunt Sherri (you remember Neisha from my other blogs? Its her mom :) )

And I can't decide on brunette...

or blonde.....

I'm going to be taking pics of them all in there fancy new Christmas outfits later. I put alot of work into them. They look really good I think.

Well that's all I have for now. Toodles.

Ridiculously short

I'm just saying to go see my newest video. Enjoy. It is here: The Fallen Rose