Sleep Paralysis....

Its a terrifying thing. I'm getting the heebie jeebies just talking about it. Basically when your body goes into REM sleep you become paralysed so that you don't act out your dreams. But if you get sleep paralysis you can wake up during this, but only mentally. So your brain wakes up, but your body is still asleep and in a state of paralysis.

With me so far? So your brain panics and tries to make sense of why you can not move and starts to hallucinate. Most people see things holding them down, like ghosts or demons. Some people see hags or witches that cast spells to make it so they can't move. Some people see aliens. (I'm not saying all alien abductions are a result of this, I'm merely stating facts, so don't get all uppity) Everyone understand?

Now what causes it? Well what causes nightmares? Our brains are amazing instruments that we only have a glimpse of understanding on. There are the usual things. Stress, sleeping in a weird place (Shaun that's probably why you get it sleep on the couch), sleeping in a new sleep pattern, not getting enough sleep.... They even say sleeping on your back can cause it. The usual suspects and others for problems with sleep. But they don't know for sure.

Personally I see the shadows. When this happens I usually get to scared to sleep for like weeks. So here we are. I had sleep paralysis on Friday night and I have hardly been able to sleep at all. I start dozing and think "What if it happens again?" Scare myself and am wide awake again.

I remember the first time it happened I think I was 12. I had a dream that I tripped and I couldn't get up and something was after me. I opened my eyes and I was in my room, but I still couldn't move for a few seconds, but I snapped out of it pretty quickly and just chalked it up to not being fully awake. Which maybe I wasn't. I really can't say for sure.

I didn't happen again until I was 19, but it happens more frequently the older I get it seems. This time (Friday) when it happened I recognized what was happening, having done some research on it since it happened last, and thought "Ok, I'm fine. Its just sleep paralysis. I just need to wait for a minute." Calm. I was alright. Then out of the corner of my eye I saw this shadow and I just knew that it knew I was having sleep paralysis, and it was coming to get me.

I just watched this shadow creep at me knowing it was going to get me if I couldn't snap out of sleep paralysis. Keep in mind, I was hallucinating. I know none of it happened, but it was terrifying.

I found this video on youtube, where someone tries to recreate what you see during sleep paralysis. It is here Keep in mind, it is a little spooky.

So writing about this has got me all spooked out. So I'm gonna go be loud and happy somewhere. Toodles.

Snow sprites...

I took some pics with my dollies new Christmas timey outfits.

I think I spent the most time on Fi's outfit. I really like these pics. It got a little to cold before I finished taking pics. Plus I was a little bored but myself. Maybe tomorrow, or more likely Monday, I'll take some music out with me to give me inspiration.

The good thing about taking pics of my dollies in the snow is that since they are not warm their clothes don't get wet. Nice since I don't know if that would ruin the fabric of Fiona's dress, or what it would do to the vinyl on Anarchy's.

So yeah. Not much is going on with me. I've decided to be more social and stuff. So yeah. Maybe I'll make a friend or something (not likely).

Anyway, I'm tired and I feel a little ill. I'm gonna go lay down. Toodles.

Its Christmas time, again.

We decorated the Christmas tree over the past weekend. I took pictures!!! Woo!!

Lola

Little Bud (you can't really see him) and the dollies

Mikey decorating :) I love him

Oliver hanging ornaments

Anarchy looks so pretty in this pic

Fiona is the angel

Anarchy. My girls were being alot more photogenic than Oliver

Fiona

And today I got An's face up touched up by my wicked awesome Aunt Sherri (you remember Neisha from my other blogs? Its her mom :) )

And I can't decide on brunette...

or blonde.....

I'm going to be taking pics of them all in there fancy new Christmas outfits later. I put alot of work into them. They look really good I think.

Well that's all I have for now. Toodles.

Ridiculously short

I'm just saying to go see my newest video. Enjoy. It is here: The Fallen Rose

Happy Holiday Fun!!

I took lots of pictures!!! Check 'em out!!

We went outside, and the first thing Fiona did was fall. Oliver tried to help her up though

Anarchy just stood and watched.

Fiona decided to make a snow angel instead of getting up

But Oliver helped her up so she didn't mess up her angel

Later Anarchy decided to take advantage of Oliver's turned back and hit him with snow.

But she ended up falling over on him and taking them both down.

But she still took the oppertunity to run snow on his face

Inside getting out of our wet things

Oliver's hair was dripping. Poor guy

All our shoes lined up to dry by the door

After that we went downstairs to wrap the presents we've had lying around

An unrolled the wrapping paper

"NO! Don't take pics over here, you never know who might see their presents!"

Putting on some tape

The needed team work to hold this piece down

Oliver wrote the names

Onto the next present

I helped this time

Oliver has good handwriting :P

The littlest one was the easiest to wrap

And didn't need help with this one

"Even the name is the easiest."

Now time to relax

It was a tiring day :)

Yep. That's what I did today. It was alot of fun. Hope you enjoyed looking as much as I enjoyed doing it. Toodles

I always forget my tuesdays...

Whenever things are planned on Tuesdays I always forget. Its usually because I've forgotten it is Tuesday. I don't know why. I always do though. Its lame.

Anyway, so today when I took the dogs out I took Anarchy out with me. She has a new wig and this weekend she will also be getting newerish face up. I wont be changing her eyes (I LOVE her eyes) just her lips. But yeah. I really love her new wig, it really fits her. And yes, I took pictures!! Here they are:

Yep. Those are my pics of Anarchy. I plan to take the rest out there and do a photoshoot. It should be fun. Woo! Everyone has been getting new outfits and such lately, so I've been taking quite a few pics.

Yep, well, that's all I got. I know its short, but I'll feed you some more bloggey goodness later. Toodles.

December begins.

So I'm just typing all journal-esque today. I didn't do anything today. Really. I got up early to shower (I like to get up early to shower because no one is either there or awake) I don't really know how I do it either. Get up early that is. I never set an alarm. I just think the night before "I gotta shower in the morning" and I wake up around like 9ish. I usually go to bed again afterward, but sometimes there is a movie I feel like watching that I know Mikey wont like so I'll watch it while he is still asleep.

Today I went back to bed. I was pretty sick yesterday, and slightly sick today. I think its just a little bit of a cold bug. One of those many things that would never affect anyone but my broken down immune system. I don't mind though. Well, not usually. This time of year I get sick rather often (not fun) but I'm pretty used to it. At least being sick so much has really put me in tune with how things are happening on my insides. That's always convenient.

I got up when Mikey got back from his shower, which I pretty much do everyday. Then I think I just laid in bed for a little while til Mikey went up to make food for the work day. I took the dogs out and fed them and the cat. Then sat and talked to Mikey while he made his lunch/dinner for work, then gave him a kiss bye and went down to my room, or as I like to refer to it amongst the voices, The Hole. Not in a bad way, but I think I have rodent like tendencies at times. i.e. I emerge from my hole to eat, emerge from my hole to used the bathroom, emerge from my hole, get spooked by my shadow and flee back into my hole. Leaving the world with 6 more weeks of winter.

And that really covers my day. I've been in my hole. I get the occasional visitor (I think Mikey's parents worry about how anti-social I am) But I like quiet and calm. Rodent like I know. Maybe I was a mole in a past life or something. Who knows. I certainly don't.

So the first thing I did in my hole (yes I'm going into detail) was turn on Howl's Moving Castle and watch about half before I couldn't keep my eyes open anymore. So I took a snooze which was rudely interrupted by Little Bud thinking the boogie man was breaking in and started barking. Little jerk is lucky I love him so (even though I did momentarily kick him off the couch). So I finished watching Howl and then turned on The Velvet Goldmine. And part way through a certain music video (its about rock stars) that shows an alien at the service of both female and male blow up dolls (for my more sensitive readers I wont go into further detail) Mikey's mom walked in. Luckily our tv is situated so that I could stand (kinda awkwardly) so that she would not see it. Knowing this movie pretty well I knew when that part was over and sat down.

After she left I thought through the movie and remembered it is rated R and for good reason. So to avoid any further awkward standing moments I changed movies and put in Moulin Rouge. Well after I put on my favorite movie I sat down and picked up the book I had gotten over the past weekend. Suddenly I'm 3/4 the way through this book and the credits for Moulin Rouge are rolling. How did that even happen?! Feeling guilty that I had paid such little attention to the movie that has brought me so much happiness I took it out of the player and turned on Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children. I LOVE this movie. Though I'm on the second time watching it, (and completely done with my book) I'm not to tired of it. Its one of those I don't HAVE to pay attention to. Let me explain.

I have some movies that I haven't watched yet to pick up on every silly simple thing. For instance in Moulin Rouge I can recite the whole movie including sound effects in perfect time. Its not necessarily because I watch them to much (though I'm sure that is a factor) My brain just picks everything up. I see a fire, and my brain notes how the smoke flows, how high the flames get and when, what people are saying and who says what. Its one of my favorite thing about my brain. Seeing everything. Hearing everything. Sometimes I don't even realize I'm listening to someone or something until they ask and I can recite everything they just said. I am a peculiar person I suppose.

I'm sure everyone that has seen Advent Children (or anything containing FFVII) is thinking "Ooohhh! Cloud! I lurve him so!" Yeah, Cloud is awesome and a total BA, but I LOVE.... wait for it... Yazoo! I do. He is so odd and almost ethereal. He has a sort of feminine way about him, that I would probably find tedious in real life. But for a few hours on tv I love his weird ways.

Yazoo. He is wicked awesome.

Yep. So with better health on the horizon I will be heading to my mom's tomorrow, and the Festival of Trees (should 'the' be capitalized?) with Mikey's mom and sisters Friday. I think Oliver may be sneakily tagging along in my purse *insert mischievous grin here) And I think that's all for now. Well FFVII just ended (again) so I am heading over to watch another movie... or restart this one. Maybe I'll watch a little Chaplin.... Hm... Its really hard to say, but either way this blog is ending. So toodles.

November's last (?) Hoorah

So this week has been INSANE!!! But very productive and fun. And here is my little blog about why. Caution: Its gonna be a long one!!!

So let's start on Monday. The carpet guy came. I was all sorts of excited and I got stuff out of drawers and all that jazz. Then the guy left without finishing. Needless to say, I was annoyed. So that brings us to Tuesday.

Tuesday: the guy comes back and finishes the job (WOO!!) and we start getting things moved in and pulled out of storage and Mikey starts to set up my puter, but is not able to finish before he has to go to work. Which was fine, I had a long day ahead of me anyway with lots of work to do so I did not need any computer temptations. *By the by, for anyone wondering, I've been on Mikey's computer lately. So here is the beginning of the move told via doll point of view...

Anarchy looking around the room

Oliver liked the soft new carpet.

Fiona on the window ledge.

Anarchy sitting in the closet

Oliver decided he would take a crack at getting my computer to work...

Obviously he had no such luck

Then I decided to put them to work.

But they did not do it alphabetically, so I had to redo it anyway

And soon it turned into "Jungle Gym Happy Fun Time"

By this time I got tired of putting them up and I just got to cleaning and organizing without any fun time. Wednesday was just more cleaning and organizing. Very tiring, but it seems the cat liked the place for her new cat box.

And Wednesday night I made Oliver a new wig. Some of you may know about how his other wig was to small, and I've been having problems with it. So here is a picture of his newest wig.

Which brings us to Thursday. Which as most of you know was Thanksgiving. I went to my mom's (and she made delicious yams!!!) and we played New Super Mario Brothers Wii. It was super fun. And yes, I took more pictures.

My mom was not being photogenic...

...and neither was Karissa...

...and Shaun was also not so inclined :(

But Christian gave me a funny face to remember him by :P

You can't really see, but this is the character select screen for Super Mario Bros Wii

Mikey. He is so serious about games :P

The dollies are on the entertainment center (You can't see them to well)

Sky Sky was a sleepy (or lazy) girl

Lola and Little Bud on my mom's lap while she played Farmville. (grumpy Karissa in the background)

Christian playing with Guerin

Yeah. It was a fun time. We picked up Neisha while in Ogden as well so she could spend the weekend with us. So here is some shots from Thursday night...

Neisha with Taryk and Delia (her dollies)

Anarchy in her adorable new wig

Fiona in her cute little outfit

Oliver in his snazzy outfit and new wig.

Hooray cute outfits!!

So then Friday we needed to get the 2 storage sheds combined into 1. That was alot of work, but we got it done. Here are some pics.

All the stuff we needed to get in

Me and Neisha got cold and sat in the truck in the end.

After all that was done we went to Logan and ate at A&W. It was pretty tastey. Then we went to the mall where we saw some interesting things. First off me and Neisha went to Fun Unlimited. Which is one of the coolest stores ever!! While we were there we encountered a very annoying person, who we have dubbed Guy: The Annoying Hot Topic Demon Baby.

So Guy was loud and obnoxious to begin with and then he started name dropping cartoon characters. (though I did die a little inside when he mentioned Johnny) After awhile it became annoying obvious that he was trying to get our attention. So me and Neisha started the fun little avoi-dance. It was a little difficult, but we managed to keep him at bay.

While doing this "dance" we went into Asian Gifts, where we found Buddha Boards. They are the coolest things and I hope to own one soon. You paint on them with water and it goes away when the water evaporates. Its pretty nifty.

After that we went to Boarders (a book store) where me and Neisha got some Pocky, and looked at Manga for a little while. I bought a book called Get Well Soon and I hope to get that read soon. After Boarders we went to Wal Mart to do a little Christmas shopping. Some stuff was bought and while we were there I found an L shirt!! I love it!! I think Mikey posted a pic on his facebook, but I will get one soon.

Saturday and today was spent relaxing and watching movies (mostly Death Note :P) which was a nice change of pace after our busy last couple days. Me and Neisha played cards, and had Mikey's mom join us for a game of Scattergories.

And now we have taken Neisha home, and we are sitting here playing on our respective computers. It is a nice end to a fun and crazy weekend. Yep. So I hope you all had fun reading this. Toodles.