A look at 2012 via my facebook feed

I wanted to go over stuff that had happened to me in 2012. But then I thought about how I don't keep a journal or anything like that and tried to think of other ways to have a look back. Then I remembered my facebook feed. Most people have one, and like most of these people I post when something significant happens or when I am very bored. So this is my look back at the year by reading through my facebook feed.

January:

The first thing I post from 2012 was "Come with us now on a journey through time and space." So its safe to assume that the first thing I watched in 2012 was The Mighty Boosh. So good job me :) I also posted later that "Vince Noir was the best" I am obviously awesome and amazing.

I also posted that my one and only resolution for the year was to not be afraid of art. Which I wasn't. I went out and tried to draw, color and paint anything and everything I could. The only resolution I have ever made that i followed. I'm so glad I did. Its been a wonderful time learning that art has no boundaries. Its been wonderful. I am grateful for the experience. Thanks past me for suggesting this, and also thanks past me for trying it out. Then I went on to post how I want to post a new pic of artwork every week..... That one I did not even sort of listen to. Nope. :)

I also came up with some pretty awesome ideas for comics that I have sort of forgotten about. I really want to work on those again. I will have to dig them back up and work on them some more. Here is a pic of a character for one that I came up with

A couple days later my sister tagged me in a post about playing Just Dance 3, and I talked later about how I hit myself in the face while we played. Sounds like that is a fun memory I wish I had on video :D Speaking about gaming with the siblings, I talk a few days later about playing Left 4 Dead with my baby brother, Christian. Which I did actually a few days ago as well :) I actually bought the game to play with him. We don't have a lot of similar tastes in video games, but we do share a love for shooting zombies :)

I also remember playing with my other brother Shaun, and he played on Christian's account. So I spent the whole time calling him "Chris" because that was what his avatar said his name was. Half the time I didn't even catch that I'd said anything wrong. I love playing games with my brothers. Specifically I love to play Left 4 Dead and Mortal Kombat with them. They are great fun. 

January was also the big deal with SOPA. For those that don't remember just follow this fun link. SOPA, PIPA and bills like them are just ridiculous. I'm not a big activist or anything, but they were garbage bills and I'm glad they didn't pass. I get stopping piracy, but there are better ways. But I digress.

Also my puppy grew and grew. I don't know if I've ever posted a pic of her on here, but when I got her in November of 2011 this is what she looked like

And in January of 2012 she looked like this

Pixel is the fluffy one. The chihuahua is Pika. The fun thing about this year is watching not only my puppy, but my sweet baby niece grow up as well. From the adorable newborn in September 2011

To January 2012 (with my beautiful sister Karissa)

I ended January with this awesome quote "As I put on my Betty Boop shirt and socks I couldn't help but feel like today will be a Boop-oop-a-doop Day :)" Which shows how awesome I am all the time.

Onto February!

The first thing I posted in February is simple. "Cookies". I later posted "M&Ms" Obviously I was hungry at the beginning of February. 

In February I did my first trade with my dolls. I traded my doll Anarchy for Jack. Wanting to downsize my doll family I'd put most of them up for sale. I sold Fiona, gave AJ back to his owner and put Anarchy and Oliver up for sale.  So I received a new doll about half way through the month.

Though I wanted to downsize I traded. I figured if I didn't like him I could sell him. But more on that later.

Addy and Pixel continued to grow

Mikey turned 27 and we had dinner with our now really close friends Gerri and Dane for the first time (that's right Gerri, one year ago we were not as good of friends)

And onto March!

In March I did a lot of arting. Here are some examples

Addy and Pixel got bigger 

And I got my first and only Monster High doll. Operetta. Phantom of the Opera! Woot!!

One of the biggest things that happened in March was the Festival of Colors. I love going to that. I plan to go again this year. I went with my brother Shaun and we had a blast. He is a super fun kid :) Here are some pics (since they are worth 1000 words :D)

This is the shirt I made

Me after some throwings (My shirt is obviously not white anymore)

Me and Shaun. He is not that serious.

This is how he usually is :)

The other big thing is that we moved. Which was nice, because that house we were renting was total garbage. I hated it. The power was shoddy and the furnace broke constantly. It sucked. We moved in with my mom for a couple months while we finished renovations on our house.

April time!!

The first thing I posted about in April was that I won a game of Clue on my first turn. Another sign of how awesome I am.

Shaun turned 20, Mikey wrecked the car he'd had since we met, I went to a second color festival, I dyed my hair blue (something I've wanted to do for SO long) and I heard one of the best quotes in my life "Does a mall baby eat chili fries?"

After Mikey wrecked his car we got a vw. I love it. VWs are so awesome. Someday I will have a VW Bug. And my life will be complete.

Blue hair!!

Also the little ones grew

May!!

First off Star Wars day. Awesome

I made a mother's day present for Karissa's first Mother's day

I got Silent Hill: Shattered Memories, and was sadly disappointed that is sucked SO BAD! Minion and Pixel got fixed, which was traumatized for all parties involved. I hated leaving them there, and felt so bad that they were all groggy and hurty. But they are better for it. Me and Gerri started hanging out a lot more. I can tell because that's when we started talking about each other more. Plus that's when she started calling me Shaybear :)

I completed more stuff from my bucket list, namely I auditioned for a band. It was terrifying, but a lot of fun and I am really glad I put myself out there. I also sort of did another one. I have "own and sd doll" on my bucket list. I sold Milo and bought an sd sized head.

In the end the body was more trouble than I wanted and I sold him. But more on that later.

Also more growing happened

June!

It was not as interesting. June was were I took a break in excitement I think :) I moved into my new house, broke my blackberry ( D': ), Mikey went to Google IO and I did some more art.

I apparently didn't take any pics of Pixel either, but Addy continued to grow :) 

July!!

Why is July awesome? My birthday!! But we'll get to that. In July I had my first 5 course gourmet meal, I played Just Dance on the 4th with my bestie, I got Batman: Arkham Asylum (finally), got an awesome game on my 3DS called Photo Dojo, Addy had her first big medical scare, and I sold Oliver and got my little dragon doll named Nit

I also chopped my hair off again

And here is some art :)

Addy had her first big health scare. She'd been sick and then her counts were low and they sent her to a hematologist and they took her blood and that made me cry. Mean stabby doctors. But she is healthy. No worries there :)

There was a doll meet on my birthday and me and Gerri and Dane played Nightmare for the last hour of my birthday (it was crazy awesome)

And Addyson grew a little more and also experienced a pool for the first time

August!

I bought Nerf guns, made a wonderful new inside joke with the name Susan, and went to the Hive gallery in Layton for the first time. Nothing really happened in August. I don't even have art to upload. But at least Addy grew more and went to her first parade :D

September! 

It was quite a milestone month. And how did I start it out?

"Hog tieing zombies and riding my fire horse. That's just how I roll."

I love being me.

September!!! Addy's first birthday, Christian's 18th birthday, Karissa's best friend (practically my sister) got married, and of course the start of the cancer scare.

My beautiful niece turned one, and my amazing baby bro turned 18, all within the same week. It was pretty awesome.

 Addy was also a flower girl at the wedding

I've been over the cancer scare, so you can read about it on the other blog. And I did more art!

And Addy just grew and grew

October!

Of course the big one is Halloween, but there was also having to get a needle biopsy (so the suck), catching myself on fire, making green fire in our pumpkins, and my favorite part of this time of year; Pumpkin coffee :D

For Halloween I talked my sister into doing Batman villains, and even though mine fell through (I wanted to be the Riddler, but it didn't work out) Karissa looked awesome as Poison Ivy and Addy was the cutest Cat Woman I'd ever seen. I was Raven. So still associated with Batman, just not one of his villains.

I carved pumpkins with with my bestie and new doll

And then some green fire happened (though it doesn't look green in the pic)

Some experimenting with art happened

And more growing

Pixel is the one with her head hanging off. Those are mine and my mom's dogs.

November!!

In November I cut some old ties, found out I did not have cancer, lost my Shin Chan phone dongle... thing, got a new school Furby, fulfilled another bucket list by owning my first sd sized doll, and my husband agreed to us owning a monkey.

In November I put my doll Jack (that I'd gotten in February) and the sd head I'd purchased up for sale. I then found my wonderful sd doll that I love. Also Addy got her first love

He is super big and super AWESOME

I also got a Furby so I own every generation. Its pretty awesome (thanks mom :D )

Thanksgiving happened and more baby growth

And lastly December!

In December the world ended (ha ha), I got an awesome book about John Lennon, my husbands tire went flat and we had a horrific adventure trying to find a security lug nut (sucked), Addy met Mr. Clause (and did not like him), I learned a new song called Bacon Pancakes, and my doll got his face.

The Mayans predicted that on December 21 2012 the world would end. Well obviously it didn't. But I spent the whole day watching apocalypse movies. It was awesome.

Go look up Bacon Pancakes. Change your life.

My new doll got his face and a name. He is Casper. This is what he looks like.

I did more art

Celebrated Christmas with the family

And watched Addy grow even more

All and all its been a good year. I look forward to 2013. Toodles.

Good news time!!!

Well folks, good news!  I got my results back, and I do NOT have cancer :) Yeah, its pretty awesome to hear those words. I really didn't realize how much it was weighing on me until it was suddenly gone. I feel a million pounds lighter. Its really an amazing feeling.

Its funny, when I would tell people about my health problems they would always say, "Oh that's so horrible. I'm so sorry." I hated (and still hate) those pitty awkward moments. Look, I'd much rather you say "Hm, that's to bad. Want to go get a taco?" And we both just move on with life. But I digress. My favorite response to that pitty line is, "Meh, at least I don't have cancer." So having cancer really dampened my parade in a lot more ways than one.

So anyway. I don't know if I have talked about my bestie on this adorable little blog yet or not, but about a year and a half ago I walked into Lens Crafter wearing a t shirt with L on it, and this ridiculously adorable sales girl hopped over to help us. At first I was like "this bouncy little fan girl is going to bug me".... But she didn't she was fun and down to earth and friendly. I walked away after making an appointment to see the doctor, thinking "that girl was friendly, maybe I'll see her when we come back for the appointment. Well she was there when we came back, and luckily my husband is more friendly than me and we ended up finding her on facebook and slowly but surely we became great friends. Now I couldn't imagine my life without her. She is one of the greatest people I know. Bold and sweet, and fiercely loyal. I am so glad to have found my bestie.

Also, I have a new doll. I have another thing to scratch off my bucket list because he is an sd sized doll. I absolutely adore him. I have no idea what to name him though. I think I will wait until he gets a new face to name him. And post pics. He is so sweet and I'm really excited to share him. Its really nice to have such a small doll family. I can focus more on the few I have. Gives me more time for each of them and everything. Its nice.

Well I think that is all I have for now. So remember kids, cancer dampens a lot of spirits and tacos fix anything. Toodles.

So new stuff...

I might as well start with all the stupid crap, then get to the fun stuff.

Well the big one is I may have cancer. On top of all the blood disease crap, I may have cancer. Its just such a big "screw you" from the universe. Its exhausting. I'm so tired of illnesses and hospitals and doctors. Like the Taking Back Sunday song "So sick, so sick of being tired; And oh so tired of being sick..." That really describes my feelings on everything right now.

Though I'm also fairly numbed out. I really just don't feel much. Except tired. Life has just worn me out, I feel like I'm just a ghost in all of it. A somehow needed extra in everyone else's lives. Just empty. I want to draw and paint and sing, but I feel like I just don't have it in me anymore. Like everything that is me has been some how shelved. A pause button on my personality.

Maybe I'm just protecting myself mentally, cause I know when I do start thinking about all this crap I just want to sit down and cry for days. Which would work if I honestly to my core didn't hate crying. I don't like the way it feels, I don't like how I feel after, I just don't like it. I do find I'm grinding my teeth all the time again. I must be stressed, just somewhere deep in me.

I've lost all motivation. I pull out sewing stuff, then just look sadly at my dolls. They just sit there in ugly outfits because I have no motivation to give them. I used to keep them in a cupboard but after they'd sat in there for days it seemed cruel. So now they sit on some shelves so they are at least out in the world. Even if I just look at them.

I've been scared. Not that I'll die. That's not how I'll go. But that all this extra is going to take the rest of if out of me. That all that's going to be left is sadness and fear. No more spark. No more silly sayings. No more love of art and beauty. No more excitement of those odd things that get in my head and make me obsessive.

It makes me feel frantic to get all the art out of me that I can, which makes it all the more frustrating that my muse has run dry.

But I don't want to talk about it anymore.

I have a new doll. He is a dragon. I love him dearly. His name is Nit :) This is him:

The Converse shoe box is actually his bed. He fits in it perfectly, which make me love him that much more. When I first saw them on a website I wanted one, and he has a special place in my heart. I love him completely. :)

My little niece Addyson has been growing up so fast! She walks and talks... Its just crazy fun to watch her do new things. Here is some pics of her :D

Yeah, I love that baby to little itty bits and pieces :D She is the best baby ever

I am happy that it has really started to smell like autumn. That scent of fire and death that is so appealing to my nose :) I love this time of year. I love the color I love the smell, I love the holidays... I even love wearing jacket :D Its so nice

Lets see.... I think that's really all that's been up with me as of late. So until next time, toodles.

Blog writing slacker

I've really been meaning to update more than this, but I'm a slacker. That's just how I roll. So what has been up with me in the last year? My illness seems to be maintaining, I have a house, 2 of my puppies passed away, I got 2 new puppies, I sold all but 1 of my dolls, I got a couple new dolls, and most important of all I became an aunt..... I think that pretty much covers it....

So I am on a really low dose of medicine and I have been for awhile and things seem to be maintaining for the most part. So my CBCs and my doctor appointments are spaced out alot more now, and all of that seems to be ok for now. So that's good.

I have a house : D I love it! It has 3 bedrooms, and 2 bathrooms. I totally love it! I'm going to paint it and hang pictures and everything. I love that I have a house that's mine and that I can do anything with. Its so awesome :)

Last August Lola and Simon got into some bad food and died. It was a terrible and tragic weekend. A week or so later everyone (even Little Bud) was still really depressed. Our little family felt so empty and sad. So my mom took me to the pound to look at puppies. I found one that I really liked so me and Mikey decided to take Little Bud up there to see if they would get along. Well the other puppy kinda freaked out on Little Bud, so we were thinking about going back inside and looking at others when the fellow that brought the dogs out said that they had a really sweet little girl that needed a good home. She hadn't been there the day before because she was getting fixed, so I hadn't seen her.

He brings out this bitty little brown puppy. Her and Little Bud seemed to get along, so we took her home. We named her Pika (like Pikachu) and she has been one of the sweetest most wonderful dogs we ever had. As much as I love her to pieces our family still felt empty.

A few months later my mom told us about a guy at her work that's dog had puppies, and was giving them away for free. So we went over there to look at puppies. We looked at a couple different ones and were thinking about taking home this little black and white one, when I started looking at the two long haired ones.  One was black, but it was a boy, and we wanted to get another girl, so I picked up the dark brown one and handed her to Mikey. We both fell in love with the little stinker and took her home. We named her Pixel and she has been a wonderful little pain  :) After always having dogs, its has been fun to watch this little puppy grow up.

So after I got Alice I did not feel all that connected to the rest of my dolls. So I sold all of them but her. I actually traded Anarchy for another doll I named Jack. I also changed Alice's name, because it never really seemed to totally fit her. I've renamed her Embry Alice Poe (a play on Edgar Allan Poe's name) I am also getting a little dragon doll tomorrow. I am SO EXCITED!!!! He is so cute. I am thinking of calling him Seneca, but the closer I get to owning him, the more I'm wondering.

So my sister had a beautiful little baby on my wedding anniversary. I am the proudest auntie to the most beautiful, amazing, and freaky smart kid that there ever was :D  It has been so funny to watch her grow up and figure things out. I love her to little bitty bits and pieces.

Yep.... So that's the nub and just of what has been going on with me in this last year. I'll be uploading pics tomorrow, since it is late tonight. So....yeah..... Toodles

Me = pain!!!

It hurts. My neck. Hurts. Ow. Pain.

Well enough of that. I've started a.... I dunno..... Comic blog...?.... I guess you could call it. I don't know what the future holds for Scribble People. It makes me sad. I did enjoy doing it, but maybe this is the way my comic future will go. Who knows.

I guess I can add a link... here

Yep. That's it.

Well I don't know what else to say. I redid the blog again. I like this one, I didn't like that last one as much. But I like the simplicity of this one. And it makes it so the new comic blog and this one kinda match.

Yeah. Well, sorry I don't have much to say, neck/back pain can be so distracting. Til later, toodles