Its sorta funny to me that I want to do something like this. I literally never thought I would want to do something like this. Or that I could. I didn't realize I had any drawing ability until I was about out of high school. I just started drawing little doodles and being half decent a them. But still never really considered it.
In high school I wanted to be a writer. I was never really that good at writing, but I think it was just high school. Obviously I still like to write. I keep up on this blog fairly often, but I think when it all comes down to it this is all I would ever want to do with writing. Have some journal that a few people might read.
In junior high I wanted to be a Broadway star. REALLY LAME!! I know. But I just discovered musicals. Like Cats, Phantom of the Opera, Newsies, Rent..... All that. Plus I also had learned that I could sing. Well. Not just belt out a few notes, I do have a very good singing voice.
But once again, it seems that all of that was just a passing fancy. I love to sing. Absolutely love it, but I don't think I could do it professionally. Well, I could, but I wouldn't enjoy it. I like to sing just to sing. I think if I had to constantly put thought into it, it would loose its flavor.
Even funnier still, in elementary I wanted to be a paleontologist. Yeah. I love dinosaurs. Little known fact about me. I love them!! They are so wicked cool. I love going to the Dino Park, I like reading all the little facts about the dinos, I have a bunch of really nice dino books my mommy got me when I was little still. Dinosaurs are wicked cool.
But I digress. Alot. I want to draw. I love it. I think about stuff I can draw, I think about how to draw things different or better, its like all I can think about. As many passing fancies as I've had when thinking about something to do with a career, I worry a little that this may also be a passing fancy.
Then again, I feel really excited about the possibility of doing this for a career. None of my other passing fancies have ever got me this excited. Like even thinking about a future with it all just feels right. I feel like its something I can do. I have a future with it. It may not be a good money future, and I'll probably always have to have at least a part time job, but that just sounds so right. Still have a job that gets me out of the house, but also have time to draw. It all just sounds so wonderful.
Yeah. But onto other stuff. I had another doctors appointment today. I am still showing signs of having cell break down, but not on a high level or anywhere close to me getting anemic. So that's good.
I am down to 50 mg of Prednisone, which is good. My doctor wants to get more aggressive about lowering my dose. Prednisone can do terrible things to your body, so I don't want to be on a high dose for a long time. We are going to do a cell count in a week to see what's going on with that, and if things are still looking good we may be dropping it again in a week. So yay there.
I also learned that the cold is a HUGE factor in all of this so I HAVE to stay warm. Or I could end up needing more transfusions. That sucks though, cause I freaking LOVE the cold weather. I feel like I'm the biggest jerk to myself. I've been so excited for the cold weather to get here, it finally does, and I can't even enjoy it. Super lame.
Yep. I have a few ideas for a cheap Halloween costume that I hope I can pull off by this weekend. Missing all the work I did really limited my Halloween costume money, which sucks, since I had the best idea and greatest costume that I can now not do :( Oh well. There is always next year.
Yep. I think that is all. So toodles :)
